the proof is in the pudding... (picture heavy!)

i wasn't kidding. this place is a mess. though to be fair to myself, it doesn't ALWAYS look like this. this is a particularly bad snapshot, which is part of the reason i've decided to document it today - to see what it is like at it's WORST. it's been hard to get motivated since our Disney trip... yes, the trip we took in the middle of JANUARY. sad but true. and that is something that i promise i will always be with this blog: truthful. no matter how ugly the truth is. i'm going to spare myself the trouble of writing out all the gory details and just post some pictures. it is embarrassing but it must be done.

one day i will be able to look back at this post and say to myself "i can't remember the last time my house looked like this!" and then it will all be worth it.

so here you go, the ugly truth of my disorganized chaos!

the living room. yep, still decorated for christmas. tons of empty boxes. lego creations. general clutter.

this is where clutter goes to die. junk mail, empty boxes, packing material.

the awkward pantry. it is in no man's land in a hallway, separate from the kitchen. we do not use it as a pantry, we use it for dog food/accessories and random storage. i haven't figured out how to rotate pictures yet, sue me.

 this house has amazing built in bookshelves. we have a lot of books. still, random clutter accumulates on the shelves. why?!

the kitchen... this is probably the most embarrassing picture for me to post. clutter is one thing. food mess is completely different!

 i wasn't lying about the dust mop in my first post...

this is mostly to illustrate the lack of design in the house. there is no real vision here.

 empty walls, no vision, lots of clutter.

dan's office, easily the most disorganized room in the house. never fully unpacked and a catch all for everything as it is right in the middle of the house and you walk through it to get anywhere.

a blah bedroom. full of space, full of clutter.

believe it or not, this is all clean laundry.

just a bunch of clutter. the contents of those boxes used to be in my trunk and i've never gone through them since i cleaned it out.

bathroom counter. full of clutter. no organization process at all.

 the pup, Nelson. he gets excited when he sees a camera.

that's better. handsome boy. you need a training makeover, mister! it's gonna happen!

it begins!

i am a grade A procrastinator and a habitual half-ass-er. I'm full of ideas that never come to fruition. my roots are always grown out, my eyebrows are always grown in. i have piles of laundry everywhere that, even though 90% of it is clean, will never make it into drawers or onto hangers. i wash last night's dishes only to cook tonight's dinner on them and leave them to do the next day. i did dust mop the floor yesterday, but i never threw away the pile of fur/dirt/junk that i gathered up from it. i've spent more time reading home organizing and cleaning books than i have actually applied toward organizing and cleaning!

this year my resolution was to finally get off my butt and do it! to organize my home, to tackle the laundry, to stay on top of my personal maintenance, to lose that weight and become the healthy, put together, responsible woman that i have dreamed of being but never put the effort into actually becoming.

now here it is the end of February and i'm already 2 months late. i'm done making excuses for myself! i made this blog 2 years ago and now i am going to do something with it. i need to make over my life and i need some accountability. some motivation. i can't put a timeline to what i need to do, there may just be too much. so i will define my goals and objectives and go from there, never biting off more than i can chew but always aware of how much still needs to be done.

the areas of my life that i intend to improve on and keep track of in this blog:

• organizing my home
• cleaning my home
• decorating my home
• losing weight
• maintaining relationships
• budgeting my money
• training my dog
• learning to cook